July 5th, 2023
The day I found out
1 + 1 would turn to 3
A mother I will be..
Me? Now? Why? How?!
Trust me my precious daughter,
This is aligned
It’s time
For your initiation
The divine feminine is awakening.
Sun,
I can’t help but think…
Youve been here before.
As I explore my inner world
I remember my body being curled
Up into a ball
Blood showing
Tears flowing
A great loss we bared
March 9th, 2022
I wasn’t ready for you
Yet…
You came first to show me the beauty in death..
darkness, and despair.
At the time it didn’t seem fair.
But I needed that loss
To show me the truth….
The sacred shrooms
Lead me into a forgotten room within my womb
Where I hid all my trauma, hurt and pain.
I met my shame and my anger,
That wasn’t gonna be cleared by burning sage…
This was ancestral rage.
Tears fall down my face
As I discover The buried voices
Who never got to speak their truth
The ones who were violated, used and abused.
I see, hear, and listen to YOU.
The untold stories,
That were swept under the rug
Are now being dug
UP
What’s done in the dark will always come to light
Only to be alchemized
Into more LIFE.
Everything is aligned,
The portal is clear,
I’ve been assigned
to travel to and from
the galaxy which he comes
and safely guide his spirit home
every muscle and bone
passes through the stone
wall,
that USED to be my heart
But I am now open
and broken apart
a piece of art,
created in this process
I am a true goddess,
empress.
mother of a future king.
I am everything
I’ve always wanted to be
I believe in me
and my every ability
to dance with the creator
gracefully,
I give birth faithfully,
In full surrender.
with beauty and ease
I dance through all the uncomfortabilities.
I flow with the breeze
and ride every wave.
surrendering to my almighty father
to protect me all the way.
within and without.
I am guided without a doubt
I am safe.
I am held.
I AM the medicine they try to sell.
All the magic flows through me
to free birth, heal, and recover miraculously.
body, mind and spirit.
I am shedding the old
and being made new.
bliss falls upon US,
and all the way through,
this reality.
After 3 days (70 hours) of labor.
I Freebirthed a healthy baby boy March 10th, 2024.
Unassisted, in water, surrounded only with the love of his mother and father.
I went into the darkness,
The abyss, the unseen, and unknown
Where heaven seems so far away
Though it’s right Inside my home
I made it through.
truly in faith, power, and praise
as we sing happy birthday!
to our sunshine,
yours and mine.
A reflection of our love.
sent from the heavens above.
More precious than any gift I could dream of.
Dear sun,
You are the greatest gift
Your are The shift
that was necessary
to clear out
The pain in my womb,
the shame, the doubt
Buried deep within me
Unseen on the surface
You were sent on purpose
To help return HER heart
After centuries of hurtin
So that SHE
can return to the sea
And connect with the source.
Living in her truth
Surrendering all force.